When a narcissist says “I love you,” these words take on a whole new meaning.
This is a letter written from the narcissist’s perspective to souls who have fallen in love with someone who can never love them back.
I am going to tell you something I would never tell you or admit to you.
When I say “I love you,” I mean that I love it as you want to believe that I love you so much.
I love the things you do for me. I love the power you give me to take advantage of your goodness by exploiting your good intentions. When you feel worse, I feel better. I love it when you feel small and insignificant.
I love the fact that your life revolves entirely around me. You solve my problems, solve my problems, ease my pain. I love how you create time for me, not for yourself. The way you give me your full attention.
I love how you doubt yourself and question your own sanity. You don’t know what’s right and what’s real unless I tell you.
“I love you” means that I need you because I need someone who won’t abandon me. I need someone I can use as a punching bag. Someone to make me feel good.
I love how my expectations of you are constantly rising, while the expectations you have of me are gradually falling. I love the look of failure and disappointment on your face.
When I say “I love you”, I mean the love of hatred for you. I love myself vicariously through the love you feel for me. And I need you to suffer because I hate having to rely on you for that.
I love that you are responsible for my happiness. I love the way I feel when you’re near me. How I can make myself a victim when you try to bring up one of my many personality flaws or harmful behavior.
I love how I make you feel really bad when you mention something I did to hurt you. How you don’t want to leave me because you are dependent on this toxic relationship.
I love how you support me and how I never have to support you. Why would I even do that? The things you’ll never have keep you with me.
I love how you think you’re with someone who loves you. But I’m a person who shows love and affection as a manipulative tool.
I love how you’ve always needed me and how you think that you are with the right person as well. How I made you feel undeserving and irrelevant.
When I say “I love you” that is not what love really represents. When I say “I love you” it means that I love the way you respect my rules and the way you live by them.
You must know that under the guise of love I will use hurtful words and manipulative tactics. You will never change me.
We both know that’s not real. We should both know it.
Your Dearest Narcissist.